Last month I made a public announcement that I am retiring from shooting weddings. I truly meant it at the time. I was very sure I was done as a wedding photographer and definitely was ready to move onto newer things! I read and re-read all the comments left by my sweet readers and my past clients and felt the deep sadness that overwhelmed me but I was very determined to move on to newer things because I was so sure I’d never look back. But something didn’t feel quite right and I couldn’t put my finger on it. It took me almost a month to figure what was lying beneath the feelings of weariness and exhaustion.
It was my desire to resurrect the love for my business, my love for photography, my love for people, and my love to serve.
It was a crazy ride after I moved to California from Maryland 3 years ago. I was looking forward to my new life here and shooting weddings all over California. However, that didn’t happen. I had a rather difficult time trying to crawl my way out of debt and be financially responsible but I let fear make the decisions for my business. And that was to pay for my own travels which included my time away from my desk (which is the most essential part of running a business), flight tickets, accommodation, food, and transportation. It was irresponsible on my part not to charge for those expenses in fear of losing clients. The time away from home and working myself to the ground by traveling nonstop for 3 years straight has made me very weary and made me not like the one thing I loved the most – to shoot beautiful couples who are in love and serve them well.
There are a lot of things I regret, but what’s done is done. I’m making a strong comeback and resurrecting my business. And I’m going to do this right once and for all before I truly retire. The title of this blog post is “Sometimes you gotta lose to win again”, because I felt like I lost. Lost the battle to resuscitate my love for wedding photography due to exhaustion. However, I am a firm believer that there is lesson in everything. I needed to let go in order to see the truth. I needed to find the answers to my “why”. Why did I love shooting weddings and why did I burn out this way? When I began to dig deep and started looking for the answers those questions, I realized I didn’t take care of myself and my business because I was so busy surviving. Striving to keep up but failing to thrive as a business owner which ultimately lead to my decision to quit wedding photography.
So here I am, back in the game refreshed and restored! I have dreams and goals for the first time and I want to teach, serve, and share all of my knowledge with upcoming wedding photographers. There will be a lot of things changing around at Julie Lim Weddings and I’m beyond excited to be continuing. I want to thank each and every individual who took time out of their day to read my story, write emails to me, direct message me, and for coming up to chat with me just for a moment to encourage me. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.